Addiction is my disease. I experienced a relapse after a year of recovery. The relapse was not as I had expected — I never would have imagined that a former source of such joy would cause such pain.
I approached other addicts, two years after recovering from my own relapse, who had gone through a similar experience. I asked each of my subjects to express their most dominant emotion. I began with myself and my own feelings of fear and paranoia. Themes began to emerge: Isolation, grief, dissonance, denial, depression, pain, apathy, worthlessness, suicide.
My name is Fares and I’m a recovering addict.